Lately, I’ve felt like an emotional sponge. My husband calls me empathetic. I call it suckage. When someone close to me is hurting, sad, or miserable I tend to feel it too.
This coming Sunday marks the 5th anniversary of my father-in-law’s passing. Each January my Sweetie gets gloomy. He misses his dad. Terribly. My once normally, even-keeled, easy-going guy becomes moody and the everyday stressors of life finally permeate his Teflon exterior. This year has been a little extra tough because a close friend just lost his own father a week ago.
Then there’s my BFF. My friend who has made me laugh and cry. Sometimes at the same time. Who at times has made me feel like the most important person in the world.
Well, she’s going through a rough patch. Ok, more than a rough patch. More like a mine field. I’ve discovered that being a BFF is sometimes like being a parent in the sense that if there was anything I could do to fix things, I would.
Finally, there’s some weird family stuff going on with my sister that’s been weighing me down for months. I can’t even begin to explain it because I don’t comprehend it myself.
The past couple of weeks I’ve been keeping to myself. I do that when my brain needs time to process the feelings I’m experiencing.
This afternoon I came to a few (painfully obvious) conclusions…
My Sweetie is a tough cookie and will be fine in a week or so (even though he’s being a crabby bass at the moment.)
(Crabby bass is an amalgamation of crabby butt and crabby ass. One must make fish lips when using this term.)
There’s nothing I can do to fix things for BFF. I’ll just continue to be her friend. She’ll land on her feet because she’s stronger than she thinks and has a family that loves her.
As for the weird stuff going on with my sister, I’ve just got to let that go. Nothing I can do. So I should stop letting it make me feel miserable, right?
As Henry Jones, Sr. would say…
Indiana, let it go.
3 comments:
Crabby Bass LMAO. BFF is a tough cookie as you said. Will land on her feet as always. So sorry about S father and his situation. He is such a strong person and will come out of this pretty quick. As for the stuff with your sister. Sometimes our family tree is just full of nuts. Hoping the stress gets better all around.
It will drive you crazy if you take on everybody else's weights. At some point, it really does get too heavy to bear.
I'm glad you're releasing it!
Henry Sr. was wrong... he'd just been healed by the Grail, so he should have been invulnerable. He could have gone after the Grail. Argh.
Weird times make the easy times seem nicer, don't they!
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